The day before I found out I was pregnant I was on the couch watching something mad at God. I . I was crying asking God why he hadn't given us another baby?? We had been trying for a close to a yr since our last miscarriage. I told God I knew he was trying to teach me patients. I told him I was tired of trying to be patient when it seemed everyone around me was getting what I wanted. Be patient kept coming into my head which just made me more mad. I went about that day and right before bed I prayed to God please give us a baby. I told him I knew he was trying to teach me to be patient so I will work more on being patient and trust him. Next morning I took Deano to school and didn't feel so good. I knew my period should come any day but decided to take a pregnancy test. Its crazy what one little stick can do make you happy or sad. I was scared to take the test I had took a lot for the past yr I think most likely one every month hoping and praying the answer would be different this time. Well that stick this time was different I was pregnant I was so happy but then I realized how scared I was of being pregnant. All kinds of thoughts ran through my head about what if i start bleeding again like I did with the MC? What if everything happens again at 9 weeks and we lose this baby too? Can I handle this?
Well I am 10 weeks today and haven't stopped praying to God for us to keep this baby. Last Monday we got to hear our baby's heart beat it is so strong. I started crying because I didn't think we would make it this far. I am so happy our baby is doing well right now. Then Tuesday afternoon Deano and I were coming home from a friends house and someone hit the back of my van. I was stopped on Hwy 9 letting a car turn into a neighborhood when we got hit from behind. Deano and I are doing good. I was trying to stay calm since I had Deano with me but I was so worried I might lose the baby. Luckily where I go was still open and they got me in right away we got to see our baby and all is well. I prayed that night for the young teenage girl driving the van that hit us. I thanked God that the accident wasn't worse and that we are all fine. I can't help though each time I go to use the bathroom pray that I don't see blood. Every little pain in my stomach has become a big deal to me. Some people asked why we decided to share our pregnancy so early on with our friends and family? Well we are very happy and want to share that with our friends and family. Also I feel you can never have to many people praying for you. If we lose this one yes we will have to tell everyone what happened which is hard. Its a life that should be celebrated.
