I have also decided to give God control of my life. When something slaps me in the face that hurts I am going to give it up to him and just everyday stuff. I have come to realize I am not doing to good dealing with all this myself but that's why he is their so I don't have to do it all by myself. I know I will still have those days that I get sad, mad, isn't fair and go this just SUCKS!! And I know he already knows that I feel that way and is their to give me comfort. I feel broken right now but I know with him helping me I can put all the pieces back together.
"I can do all this through him who gives me strength" Philippians 4:13(NIV)
" I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me" same verse just in King James Bible
I have also decided to stop asking the y questions. She is pregnant while I was why did she get to keep hers and not me?? Why did you give that family a children when all they do is mistreat them?? She is drinking and doing drugs and your giving her a baby why?? I could go on forever with the y questions. I don't know why but its not for me to figure out and it only hurts me to keep asking why. I know God has a big picture and one day I will know it.